Life after this?

I apologize, it has been way too long since I have posted. I can blame it on a number of things, Work, Life, Love and Loss. And have played into this.
Lets start with Work: Summer and Spring = way busy. I love being busy because it makes the time go really fast, which is both a curse and a blessing. I had to stop and remind myself that my kids are all getting older, going into a higher grade. And growing before my eyes. I think I need them to stop...like now lol . Where is my time going??
This next subject can be tied all into Life, Love and Loss, all 3 are changing for me. I find myself in a place in my life where I am alone, but not alone. I have lost the best friend I have ever had, even if it is just temporary. Having heard the words " I don't know if I love you anymore" will forever be burned into my heart. Given the fact that all marriages go through their ups and downs, this is surely a down. Being the God loving wife that I am, I will stand by my vow to love honor and respect my husband through this time. I pray that God softens his heart and brings him back home. Life is hard, there is the stress of money, time, bills, kids, work. I mean the list goes on. I do not blame him for being stressed out or overwhelmed. I don't even blame him for leaving me to take the easy way out of our stressful life.... It is my job as a wife to be here for him when he doesn't think he needs me. I will not abandon my marriage. I will be right here waiting for him with as much love in my heart as when he left it. Because I know he needs that right now.

On December 21 2013, I didn't just Marry my best friend. I married into the Role of a Step Mom to his beautiful kids. I have grown in so many ways because of them. They have shown me the real definition of love. It was a rough road, one that I didn't think I could ride with at some points. I have tested my love, my faith and my patience. But being faced with the idea that I could potentially have my family ripped from me, I thought I could die. Suddenly I regret not saying I love you as many times as I thought it. I wished I hadn't told them to be quiet as much as I did, letting the sound of their laughter echo in my house, being captured in my walls so I could hear it forever. I miss the moments of sitting in the same room, watching a boring movie, but just being happy to be next to them. I love my kids, I love my family, I love my husband.

So Today i went to the Dentist

Trust me, I've had worse ideas. But it was long over due so I made an appointment and actually showed up. After a 3 hour appointment I walk out of there not feeling half of my face, talking like Sid the Sloth. But lets start with the positives, I have ZERO cavities!!! BUT I have to have quadrant cleaning, 3 separate appointments, and in 8 days I will be back in there for 3 hours while they yank my wisdom teeth out.... Seriously. What did I ever do to them?!? oh and here is the "Best" Part I need fucking braces! sorry about my language mom, but I literally made it to almost 29 years old....what do I get for my birthday?? BRACES?!?!?! but don't worry I wont get them until after cabo....one simply doesn't go to cabo with braces! well I guess I could get clear ones.


So I leave there, go to work feeling like half my face is falling off, sluring my words and my boss is wondering if it was really the dentist I came back from ha ha ha. Listen, im not the kinda person to get drunk at work...any more anyways! which reminds me, I have been sober for 109 days!! Since New years eve I have not had a single sip of alcohol in my body. Which sucks only once a month realistically. I was talking to Matt yesterday about if we were going to drink on our Cabo vacation. I always had the idea that I would be sipping margaritas all day on a vacation...But sober people don't do that. But hey they can make anything a virgin, well except Lindsay Lohan ha ha ha ha.
But back to my melting face, this is just another awesome day, where I can still eat without looking like a dumbass. Thankfully two of my meals are shakes. I owe this to Herbalife lol. And not to mention, I totally wore my Herbalife pin to the dentist, and got two new contacts! How exciting is that!??!

Addiction

I have always heard that working out can be addicting. Then I actually started working out and weirdly I got addicted to it. But I found this ad on MSN.com that really struck me. it was called 10 strange things you get addicted to living a healthier lifestyle.  And I have to say I completely agree.

I know that before I started using Herbalife  I had like...wished I could be skinny, and wished I had the drive to eat healthier or wake up early to work out. But it just kept getting pushed back. I famously kept saying " Monday ill start, or beginning of the month ill start" Like I needed a special day to come along and MAKE me do it.

Well I jumped and ordered Herbalife. Suddenly I saw results fast, and living healthy became and addiction. I wanted to see what I could do next. So it started with eating. I would chose better options...I chased the number on the scale that kept taunting me. So when I kept watching the number go lower I started to think, what could I do to see my pant size go down. So not only did I start eating better, suddenly I found myself waking up an hour earlier just to work out. And it wasn't like a huge work out, but I would do yoga one day, weights the other, jumping jacks and before I knew it I had an entire routine down.

I could literally say that I was addicted to the way that I felt, being healthy. Everyone noticed. My attitude was better, I was more confident. And the confidence definitely spilled into the bedroom if you know what I mean ;)

So seriously , check out that site, read it and figure out what it is that YOU can do to chase that awesome high of feeling amazing.

BTW here is a sneak of my progress....check out dem legs!!!
Before I was thicker than a snicker, After, I am still thick in all the right places :)