Life after this?

I apologize, it has been way too long since I have posted. I can blame it on a number of things, Work, Life, Love and Loss. And have played into this.
Lets start with Work: Summer and Spring = way busy. I love being busy because it makes the time go really fast, which is both a curse and a blessing. I had to stop and remind myself that my kids are all getting older, going into a higher grade. And growing before my eyes. I think I need them to stop...like now lol . Where is my time going??
This next subject can be tied all into Life, Love and Loss, all 3 are changing for me. I find myself in a place in my life where I am alone, but not alone. I have lost the best friend I have ever had, even if it is just temporary. Having heard the words " I don't know if I love you anymore" will forever be burned into my heart. Given the fact that all marriages go through their ups and downs, this is surely a down. Being the God loving wife that I am, I will stand by my vow to love honor and respect my husband through this time. I pray that God softens his heart and brings him back home. Life is hard, there is the stress of money, time, bills, kids, work. I mean the list goes on. I do not blame him for being stressed out or overwhelmed. I don't even blame him for leaving me to take the easy way out of our stressful life.... It is my job as a wife to be here for him when he doesn't think he needs me. I will not abandon my marriage. I will be right here waiting for him with as much love in my heart as when he left it. Because I know he needs that right now.

On December 21 2013, I didn't just Marry my best friend. I married into the Role of a Step Mom to his beautiful kids. I have grown in so many ways because of them. They have shown me the real definition of love. It was a rough road, one that I didn't think I could ride with at some points. I have tested my love, my faith and my patience. But being faced with the idea that I could potentially have my family ripped from me, I thought I could die. Suddenly I regret not saying I love you as many times as I thought it. I wished I hadn't told them to be quiet as much as I did, letting the sound of their laughter echo in my house, being captured in my walls so I could hear it forever. I miss the moments of sitting in the same room, watching a boring movie, but just being happy to be next to them. I love my kids, I love my family, I love my husband.

Teeth Yanked

So I have been MIA for a few days, I had some wisdom teeth yanked out of my head. Wasn't fun in the slightest. First, I thought I would be put to sleep for that, Nope. Just some numbing gel and laughing gas. In all honesty, I didn't feel much, but I could hear the crunching of the tooth inside of my head, and the pressure of them pulling it out was just too much. I hated it to be honest. Which sucks for me to say but now that my teeth are gone....I am able to get braces. Friggin Braces. At 29...seriously?? they better be clearer than clear cause I am NOT looking forward to being a brace face. And it will have to wait until after December, No body gets braces right before they go to Cabo...No body. With my luck, the flight will be delayed because my mouth will set off the Metal detectors and we wont make our reservation. I know I'm being a brat, I am a little irritable still from the mouth pain.
But to be honest, Sunny Cabo is what I was thinking about the whole time. They had that super bright light all up in my face, gave me some super cool glasses, every once in a while I would get sprayed in the face with some water. That's alright, just the waves coming up to far on the beach.

So truth be told, (this will all make sense) I was having a hard time getting back into my routine of working out all morning, following my meal plan to a T. But now that I can't eat solids for about a week, I told the Dental Hygienist not to fret, I Herbalife, so I wont starve, Long story short, Who leaves the dentist from getting teeth pulled with 4 new clients?? THIS GIRL! woop woop . Turns out the entire office is on vacation During the Holidays and they want to slim up also . ha ha Go me.!

But in all reality, I lost 3 pounds lol. See all I needed was for someone to rip my teeth out of my head forcing me into my awesome eating habits. And now im back.

As for the workouts, Those start on Monday...No need to rush this ;)

Best recipe EVER!!!!

So the other night Matt was going to some class thing for work. This sucked because as always I miss him when he is gone, BUT that meant I could experiment with all of the healthy foods I want, and not feel guilty for borderline poisoning him. So Of course I am "Herbalifing" so I had to find something that was healthy, kinda clean eating and chalk full of goodies...Me, I like sugar ,...and bacon, and noodles. SO I went onto Pinterest and looked for something that was carb free. and holy cats there are a lot of options.

So I scrolled until I found this beauty

 

I knew instantly that I needed to have it, I mean, you had me at bacon but I mean with spinach and spaghetti squash, and cheese. This is like the best healthy dish I have ever had ha ha. My fitness pal says that for one serving it is roughly 300 or so calories. I can definitely live with myself after gorging on this for the next two days! So after having my delicious, tastes like a cheat Meal replacement shake, I got to literally mow down on this. I didn't even care that my son didn't like it, only because I knew I could have more later ha ha ha. Bad Mom!

 

 

CLICK HERE FOR THE RECIPE!!

 

 

CLICK HERE TO LOSE WEIGHT LIKE I DID!!!